Week Five [October 3 – October 6]

Power and Politics in America

[X] The New American Democracy, Chapter 8 - TUESDAY
[ ] Is Voting for Young People, Pages 1-94 - TUESDAY

Marlowe Colloquium
[X] Shakespeare, Titus Andronicus - TUESDAY
[X] James, "Cultural Disintegration" - THURSDAY (in course packet)

American Literature I
[X] William Byrd, “The Secret Diary of William Byrd of Westover” - MONDAY
[X] Portraits by John Singleton Copley* - MONDAY
[X] Phyllis Wheatley, poems and letters [751-764] - MONDAY
[X] Crevecoeur, Letters from an American Farmer [595-616] - MONDAY
[X] Letters of John and Abigail Adams - WEDNESDAY
[X] Thomas Paine, Common Sense - WEDNESDAY
[X] Thomas Jefferson, Declaration of Independence [616-657] - WEDNESDAY
[X] Madison & Alexander, Federalist Papers #1 & 10 [665-674] - WEDNESDAY
[ ] Writing Assignment #2 - Due October 12 [EXTENDED DEADLINE]
[X] Blackboard Post by Wednesday @ midnight

17th Century English Literature
[X] Begin collecting Bibliogaphy for Masque Group Project
[X] Read selected poetry - George Herbert - MONDAY
[ ] Selected Poetry - Ben Jonson - NEXT WEDNESDAY

Week Four [September 26 – 29]

Power & Politics in America
[ ] The New American Democracy, Chapter 7 - TUESDAY
[ ] Fiorini, Culture War, pgs 57-End - TUESDAY
[X] Assignment #3, BB - THURSDAY

Marlowe Colloquium
[X] Read Play "Henry VI" [Part 1] - TUESDAY
[X] Read "Gender and Value" by Nancy Gutierrez, BB - TUESDAY

17th Century English Literature
[X] Read bolded selections of John Donne Sonnets and Songs - MONDAY
[X] Good Friday, 1613, Riding Westward - WEDNESDAY

American Literature I
[X] BB Discussion Board Posting - By WEDNESDAY NIGHT
[X] Edwards - Personal Narrative - TUESDAY
[X] Edwards - Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God - TUESDAY
[X] Edwards - Letter to Reverend Doctor Benjamin Colman - TUESDAY
[X] Edwards - The Beauty of the World - TUESDAY
[ ] Benjamin Franklin - The Autobiography Parts I & II - THURSDAY

Upcoming Things to do. And Papers
American Literature I - Writing Exercise #2 - Due October 6
Marlowe Colloquium - Paper #1 - Due October 14
17th Century Literature - 1 Hour Meeting - Thursday @ 3:30

Midterm Dates
October 19 - American Literature
October 20 - Power and Politics in America
October 20 - Marlowe Colloquium


I am just so frustrated 😦 
Mostly with people, but also by my own lack of ability to say no to certain people.

ALSO people treat online relationships/friendships like they're nothing. So easy for them to just up and disappear or stop talking to you. So effortless for them, and it kills me every day to have lost the friends I have because I was more emotionally invested in the friendship than they were. 

I just can't deal with any of this. But I need friends to rant to because otherwise I just end up ranting on this livejournal about the same stupid whining self-laments that you see on this when I don't vent to a real person. A real person online or offline, just a real person.

Lately, my life is devoid of both the online and offline variety of friends, thats for sure though.

Upon A Wasp Chilled With Cold

She fanned her wings against the wind,
Her feeble gestures lacklustre now,
Lacking conviction, for she was doomed.
The fire in her eyes fading with every wingbreath,
Her soul stuttering in and out at every dip.

She felt the warmth of a fire,
Breaching the fine particles of ice,
And she beat those fragile wings a little harder,
Every stroke bringing her closer to the life-giving embers.

But her tired body, wings and all,
Craved rest. Nearer she grew to the Source
And harder the flight became.
She wanted Salvation, though she knew it not by that name,
But her feeble wings, oh their feeble breaths wracked her frame.

Soul stuttering in and out,
Still the wasp flew farther from the cold.
Flew to the heat, to the calling in  her every fiber,
Attuning her body to the compass of her surroundings.
Still the cold wasp flew.

Just Fine.

Everything in my life right now is Just Fine. Its not a standstill, and its not bad, but its not amazing either. Do you know that feeling you get, when you're stuck in limbo? Like there has to be some sort of…THING…coming up that'll sweep you off your feet and make life adventurous and exciting and fearsome again, but its not quite here yet. This is like the all-nighter I pull before a flight to India, that stage where I'm too excited in the anticipation of more eventful times but not willing to let myself sink into resignation and regret.

I'm getting work done, I'm commuting to class, I'm working, I'm participating in the NYU activity (aka e-Board of 2 clubs + being a Site Leader) but I'm just too exhausted by the routine of it all. 

I'm not talking to Dan anymore. I don't really know, I think he thinks that our friendship is over and I'm probably better off not being friends with somebody who can throw two years away in a heartbeat. 

And then, ironically enough, I'm talking to Dan again. The Dan from Michigan. The one I have so many years of history, of ups and downs with. We're in one of those phases where we talk every single day right now, and I love it, but I feel as though this is a superficial closeness. He's teaching me chess and I'm hoping that we're able to keep it casual and keep in touch long enough to rekindle true friendship from whatever it is we had when we were 16.

Then I wonder if that is even possible?

I can't reverse the clock, go back in time and fix things. But I'm still waiting for the one, and we have so much in common that I can't help but feel attracted to him everytime we talk. You never forget your first, I guess that goes for your first (and only) online boyfriend as well? We grew up differently, we want different things. But that tension is still there, and while it makes for FUN times, it doesn't necessarily make for LASTING times. And to be honest, I don't even know if anything 'lasting' is what I need right now. I should wait until graduate school, figure out where I'll be, and then try to open up my heart. 

Keep it in an inpenetrable cage until then?

But the trouble is, I love too easily. Not the head-over-heels puppy-dog-love, but the kind where you care about another person, where you remember what is going on their life, and you try to be there for them to ease their sorrows and share their joys. The kind of love where you don't want them to hurt themselves, even if it means letting them take the anger out on you. The kind where you'll overlook their flaws because you believe they are a GOOD person.

And then every time I go ahead and do that, they screw me over. My past haunts me and I cannot help but expect more of this in the future.

And yet, I'm just fine. Just waiting. Just hoping.

Week Three [September 19 – 22]

Power & Politics in America
[X] The New American Democracy, Chapter 6 - TUESDAY
[X] Shepsle and Bonchek, The Median Voter Theorem, BB - TUESDAY
[X] Stephen Ansolabehere, Candidate Positioning, BB - THURSDAY
[X] Fiorini, Culture War, pgs 57-108 - THURSDAY
[X] Assignment #2, BB - THURSDAY

Marlowe Colloquium
[X] Read Play "The Great Tamburlaine" [Part 2] - TUESDAY
[X] Stephen Greenblatt, Marlowe and the Will to Absolute Play, in copy packet - TUESDAY
[ ] Read Play "Henry VI" [Part 1] - THURSDAY

17th Century English Literature
[X] Read Sidney, On the Defense of Poesy - MONDAY
[X] Writing Assignment #3 - MONDAY

American Literature I
[ ] Writing Exercise #1 - WEDNESDAY
[X] BB Discussion Board Posting - By WEDNESDAY NIGHT
[X] Read: Trial of Anne Hutchinson, BB - MONDAY
[ ] Read Winthrop, A Model of Christian Charity - MONDAY
[ ] Read Morton, The New English Canaan - MONDAY
[ ] Bay Psalm Book, Pgs 167-173 - WEDNESDAY
[ ] New England Primer, 353-355 - WEDNESDAY
[X] Anne Bradstreet, poems and letters, 118-217 - WEDNESDAY
[X] Edward Taylor, 267-271, 283-287 - WEDNESDAY

Shit Due Tomorrow:

Cuz I freakin forgot to make myself a weekly post about it and NOW I'm sure I have like 500 more pages of reading due tomorrow than I can handle…?

SO takin it from the top:

8AM – Power and Politics in America RCT

  • Hand in Assignment #1 – DONE
  • Pretend you know what you're saying, then write down everything you need to finish for this class over the weekend

9:30AM – Power and Politics in America LEC

  • Read 1-56 of Culture War
  • Read Shepskie on Collective Action
  • Read 4 & 5 of TB – DONE

11:00AM – Marlowe with Shakespeare

  • Read Tamburlaine Part II – DONE

2PM – American Literature RCT

  • Read Rowlandson + other Conquest Readings

SOOOO basically I'm going to read shepskie, rowlandson, and culture war FIRST. Then if I get time, go over the other conquest readings that we discussed in lecture tuesday. If I have time. 

Over the weekend, I MUST CATCH UP!