Blog Every Day In May – Introduction

Well what does one do when she forgets how to blog? She takes up a blogging challenge, of course! Readymade content for the month to come folks ūüôā

I initially discovered this on¬†, one of the beauty bloggers I follow. Her eyeshadow swatches are excellent and on a whole other level entirely. Well actually I love her lip swatches too but she’s so much lighter than I am that they don’t really do much for me.

Then another blogger & friend of mine, Allkindsobeauty, also took up the challenge. Now I just knew it was destined to be the thing to get me out of my personal blogging funk!

I’ve got some catching up to do, but I’ll get it done. Anybody else joining in with me? Here are the questions/topics for each day –

Day 1, Wednesday: The story of your life in 250 words or less (or one paragraph… no one will be counting your words… probably)
Day 2, Thursday:¬†Educate us on something you know alot about or are good at. Take any approach you’d like (serious and educational or funny and sarcastic)
Day 3, Friday: Things that make you uncomfortable
Day 4, Saturday: Favorite quote (from a person, from a book, etc) and why you love it
Day 5, Sunday:¬†Publicly profess your love and devotion for one of your blogger friends. What makes them great? Why do you love them? If you don’t have blogger friends, talk about a real-life friend or even a family member
Day 6, Monday:¬†If you couldn’t answer with your job, how would you answer the question, ‘what do you do’?
Day 7, Tuesday:¬†The thing(s) you’re most afraid of
Day 8, Wednesday: A piece of advice you have for others. Anything at all.
Day 9, Thursday: A moment in your day (this can be just a photo or both a photo and words)
Day 10, Friday: Most embarrassing moment (s). Spill.
Day 11, Saturday: Sell yourself in 10 words or less
Day 12, Sunday:¬†What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life…)
Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.
Day 14, Tuesday: Ten things that make you really happy
Day 15, Wednesday:¬†A Day in the life (include photos from throughout your typical day – this could be “a photo an hour” if you’d like)
Day 16, Thursday:¬†Something difficult about your “lot in life” and how you’re working to overcome it
Day 17, Friday: A favorite photo of yourself and why
Day 18, Saturday: Tell a story from your childhood. Dig deep and try to be descriptive about what you remember and how you felt.
Day 19, Sunday: Five of your favorite blogs and what you love about them
Day 20, Monday:¬†Get real. Share something you’re struggling with right now.
Day 21, Tuesday: A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives
Day 22, Wednesday: Rant about something. Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. (a pet peeve, a current event, a controversial topic, something your husband or roommate or neighbor or boss does that really ticks you off)
Day 23, Thursday:¬†Things you’ve learned that school won’t teach you
Day 24, Friday: Your top 3 worst traits
Day 25, Saturday:¬†Something someone told you about yourself that you’ll never forget (good or bad)
Day 26, Sunday:¬†Something you read online. Leave a link and discuss, if you’d like.
Day 27, Monday: A letter to your readers
Day 28, Tuesday: Only pictures
Day 29, Wednesday: Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. Use Grooveshark or YouTube to include them in the post
Day 30, Thursday: React to this term: Letting Go
Day 31, Friday: A vivid memory

Let’s get this thang started!

I’ve forgotten how to blog!

I’ve spent so much time¬†just living these past few weeks (Okay fine, maybe months) that I’ve turned into such a bad blogger.

I’m not even upset at how infrequently I’ve posted, but I really miss having the motivation and desire to post. Hell at one point, I was so¬†passionate¬†about this. It was like in the back of my head, every memory I made and event I participated in, I could spin it into a blog post.

It was kinda amusing – the voice inside my head would narrate my life in beautiful sentences complete with witty anecdotes and a humorous writing style.

If you’ve been blogging for a while, you have to know exactly what I mean. That phenomenon when you bite into dinner only to look up and see your waiter slip on a banana peel and think to yourself “Oh man, this is going to make a helluva good story.” And once you’ve thought that, its almost like you’ve begun writing the sentences in your head.

Am I alone over here?

I used to feel that way ONCE UPON A VERY LONG TIME, and now that feeling is gone. I am nostalgic for those days, when I found it so much easier to just write out all of my thoughts here instead of letting them fester.

I guess maybe a part of that is because I started Controlled Derangement with the intent of keeping it personal but then through participating in writing competitions and events (ie. Poetry Paradise or Blogging Honesty), I really lost the ability to keep this a proviate blog.

Although Nabila is still my most avid reader, she’s no longer my only reader. So I’ve become a lot more self-conscious of what I say and how I say it. Maybe that’s taken the zest out of it for me?

I wonder to myself – who in the hell will care to know about how my day at work was today. Why would people follow my blog to read that. I’m not some president or famous person…!?


Law School: Final stamp of approval

If I chose to attend Hofstra Law (Recall from earlier posts that I am getting a full ride, essentially), I made two conditions clear to my parents from the very beginning.

  1. I will have my own car, and I will take it where I please. I will be responsible for gas
  2. I will not need permission from them before I go to and from school, parties, get-togethers, etc. I’ll keep them informed but if I’m out till 12am or 2am, that’s my business. If I’m studying at the law school library all night, that’s also my business, and solely my decision to make. I refuse to beg for their permission for the next three years.

I laid that out quite clearly and told them that this is what would need to happen if I went to Hofstra Law. They said yes. They are welcome to fret when I’m out all they want, but I refuse to live a prisoner in my own home for the next three years because they feel like being conservative and overprotective Indian parents.

So guys…I’m going to Hofstra’s Law School! It’s official – I’ve put in my deposit today.

NYU Senior Formal!!

NYU Senior Formal!!

I had a BLAST! Yes, that word deserves its capital letters.

The food tasted amazing, the drinks were bottomless, and the company was fantastic. Music was pounding, dancing was joyful, and all of my stress vanished. It was a wonderful night spent in the company of the greatest of friends ūüôā

And of course, more pictures!

Just one of those days

Today I just had one of those days where nothing goes quite right. Nothing tragic or even bad, but it’s just…not right.

It started when I woke up at 11am still drunk from the night before. To a text from my mother. “Hello”

I looked at it, went to the bathroom whilst containing my nausea, drank water, and fell back asleep. Then I woke up again at like 12:30 to my parents yelling at me. This did not improve my headache. Apparently, that was a loaded hello from which I was supposed to interpret that I had to hurry home from the city because we had guests coming over for brunch and everybody was waiting for me before they started eating.

I mean, WHAT.

So then I get home and I’m starving. Ate food, that went well – though it was a little spicy. Hadn’t taken my allergy meds so I was sniffling the entire time.

I made plans to take my baby cousin/sister/friend/thing (They are family friends and their daughter is basically like my baby sis) to go archery. We got late and wouldn’t have been able to stay the full 2 hours we were paying for, so our adventure was stopped short at the gas station.

It was such a beautiful day out though that we decided to go find SOMETHING to do. Something that could get us out of the house.

I took her to Herrill lanes first to do some bowling. There was a $2/game deal till 5pm. We get there, the lanes are closed till 6 for a tournament.

Then we went into the movie theater hoping that The Croods would be playing. They were, but not until 6PM. Current time: 4:20.

Dug into my wallet to purchase tickets, only to realize I forgot my Optimum Discount card back home.

Took her out to eat in the meantime + went home to pick up card. Ate so much that we had no room for dessert. Managed to hit the curb a slight bit while parking. Argh.

Got stuck behind a slow car. Finally made it to the theater, Optimum card didn’t swipe. Assistant was kind enough to offer frazzled me the discount price anyway. YES, FINALLY SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS.

Played phone tag with Rahul all day. Finally managed to speak to him 10 minutes prior to his bedtime and confirmed all the details for our hangout (SENIOR WEEK BOAT CRUISE WUTWUT) tomorrow but did not get any talking done and also managed to offend him by questioning his taste in clothing. Argh. Continued to dig myself into deeper hole while trying to explain how I felt about his interpretation of formal attire without being mean. Came across as mean.

Did not put away any of my clothes as was planned. Shoot. Did not post Sunday Project No Buy update as planned either. Going to post that next.

Sorry for the play by play, but it was just one of those days.

Edited to update: I posted my No Buy update!! And maybe fiddled with the published timestamp a little LOL

Controlled Derangement is going to law school!

I received my first acceptance e-mail today! It’s not my first choice, it’s a backup, but it’s a much needed boost of confidence!¬†

Dear Pryanka,

Congratulations!  On behalf of Dean Eric Lane and the Law School Faculty, I am happy to share the news of your acceptance as a JD student to the Maurice A. Deane School of Law at Hofstra University. You will soon receive an official letter by mail as well as a guide that provides details about matriculation and other information for starting our program in August 2013. 

There is a follow-up e-mail that has me even more excited. Ecstatic, even!

I am pleased to share that, in addition to your admission to the Maurice A. Deane School of Law at Hofstra University, you have been granted an annual tuition scholarship in the amount of  40000.00. This award recognizes your achievements to date; it is also a testament to the promise of your continued success as a legal professional and a graduate of Hofstra Law. Your scholarship is renewable during your time at the Law School based on the enclosed information . Half the annual amount will be applied when you matriculate in August, and half will be applied in January.

Oh my gosh, I can’t even breathe. This is before they’ve even received my letters of rec. and FAFSA…

I know this is the lowest ranked of all of the law schools I applied to and by no means near the caliber of my dream school, but I feel very proud of getting in regardless. Fingers crossed that I hear back positively from Fordham and Cardozo as well! 

Ultimately though, money talks. I am going to be honest and say that going to Hofstra Law will mean receiving a significant yearly scholarship PLUS I will be living at home, so there will not be any living expenses. I will also get my own car, which will be all sorts of fantastic.

The cons? Imagine having a boyfriend as a law school student who still lives at home with her super conservative Indian parents. BYE BYE SEX LIFE! I mean wut…