Homework – 1L Week Three

SEPTEMBER 9 – SEPTEMBER 13

Note: § – denotes “section”

CAREER DEVELOPMENT
[X] Add course to TWEN
[ ] Attend Family/Matrimonial session @ 1PM
[ ] Attend Intellectual Property session @ 2:15PM

CIVIL PROCEDURE
[X] Tuesday: pp 124-147, 148-157; RP 28 §§ 1367, 1441-46 (3 cases + reading)
[X] Wednesday: pp 158-175 (makeup class from 4pm-6pm) (5 cases)
[X] Thursday: pp 176-197

CONTRACTS
[X] Monday: pp 78-86, 89-100
[X] Wednesday: pp 100-115; Review
[ ] Extra: Begin typing up notes to date & creating outline

LEGAL WRITING
[X] Monday: Neumann pp 127-136; Just Writing Ch. 6
[X] Practice Analysis 3 due on TWEN by 10AM
[X] Wednesday: Review Practice Analysis 3
[ ] Assignment 1 due on TWEN by 4PM FRIDAY

TORTS
[X] Tuesday: Negligence Generally pp 133-143, 145-50
[ ] Thursday: 150-174; Pattern Jury Instructions (PJI) 2:12

Homework – 1L Week Two

SEPTEMBER 2 – SEPTEMBER 6

Pretty boring. I’m no good at updating and keeping paper planners but putting up my homework for the week on WordPress is something I have been doing for a while 🙂 Instead of breaking up assignments by day, I’m going to break them up by subject I think. And if I don’t like that, I’ll switch back to day.

This is a pretty typical weekly schedule. In fact, it’s on the lighter side because Legal Writing hasn’t started giving out any official graded assignments yet. So…if you really wanna go to law school, make sure you can do the work! Cuz there’s a hell of a lot of it.

Note: § – denotes “section”

CAREER DEVELOPMENT
[ ] Class does not begin until September 13

CIVIL PROCEDURE
[X] Tuesday: pp 59-92 (Casebook); Marshall v. Marshall; Federal Rules of Civil Procedure (RP) 28 U.S.C. §§ 1332, 1335; Fed.R.Civ.P. 22
[ ] Thursday: pp 93-123 (Casebook); RP 28 U.S.C. § 1331, 2201

CONTRACTS
[X] Monday: Casebook pp. 40-64
[ ] Wednesday: pp. 64-76

LEGAL WRITING
[X] Monday: No class; Practice Analysis #2 due @ 10AM Tuesday
[X] Wednesday: Bring hard copy of Analysis; Neumann pp 37-42, 53-60, 117-125; Just Writing Ch. 9

TORTS
[X] Tuesday: Trespass and Conversion pp 68-70, 81-91 (2 cases + reading)
[ ] Thursday: Defenses pp 92-132 (10 cases + reading); from supplement – Penal L. §§ 35.05, .10, .15, .20, .25; Public Health L. §§ 3000-a; Miglino v. Bally Total Fitness of Greater New York, Inc., Gen. Bus. L. §§ 218

Pursuing other careers

I have decided that the time has come to think about other career options. I’m just not cut out for law. As much as my heart wants it, LET’S BE HONEST – my standardized test scores and GPA simply aren’t competitive enough. 

I have applied to law schools, a few of them, but I don’t honestly expect to get into any. If I don’t, then I need to pursue other career options and really re-evaluate where my life is taking me.

I’m thinking of doing some research into the teaching field and how much extra schooling that would require. 

Seventeen years of chasing the dream later, I’m finally waking up.

One passion?

January 13, 2013 – Late Night Thoughts

I tried to set up a motivational songs playlist – you can see it on Spotify if you know how to stalk me through those things. I signed up with my name (Pryanka Arora) and main email address (blishful@gmail.com) if that makes things easier. I added the songs Motivation (Kelly Rowland, Lil Wayne), I Believe I Can Fly (R. Kelly), Stronger (Kanye West), We Will Rock You (Queen), and Total Eclipse of the Heart (Queen). Then I played a random song and set to work typing up this post.

But whatever thoughts had been pouring out of me dying to be written suddenly got stage fright and disappeared. So I guess this is just one of those nights that I don’t need music on. It was distracting me! That’s a first.

I wanted to talk about firsts today too. Today is the first time I don’t feel like wearing nail polish on my fingers. In fact, I have this strong urge to go downstairs right now and wipe off Sinful Colors, Blue By You, off my nails before I continue writing. I don’t know where this is coming from or why I feel such vehement distaste towards polish on my nails suddenly, but there is no denying that it is there. I have not gone a single day without painted nails once I stumbled across my fascination/addiction/obsession with nail polish in late 2011. It is now January 2013 and this week, I left my nails bare on Wednesday. And after typing this post, I am probably going to remove my polish once more.

I know that people change and it’s nothing to freak out about, but in my typical fashion of overthinking things and drawing out connections, I feel like this week, my passion for nail art is dimming. I am sure it will revitalize or change gradually into a gentler calling.

Passion. I never want to be criticized for not having enough passion. With my career, with my family, with my hobbies – I want to be passionate. I never want to do something I am not passionate about. And it is not until recently that I began to experience so much depression, anxiety, and doubt when it came to law.

Guys, I WANT TO BE A LAWYER. I have wanted to be a lawyer since I can remember. Dreams can change, and it’s okay. But this isn’t even a dream. It is my one goal, ambition, purpose, and passion. My ONE career choice that I felt undying passion and draw to.

Then it came down to it and I underperformed on the LSAT. Maybe not the end of the world, but crushing to my self-esteem and confidence. To my passion.

I feel as though when I lost that passion, I tried to fill in the gaps with things like nail art, beauty blogging, makeup and skincare products, nail polish, and dating. My writing suffered, my academics suffered, and certainly, the law school application process has suffered.

I don’t have a single letter of rec yet, though I brought up the subject with my Professors and Bosses back in November. I just dropped it all. What happened to my passion? WHERE IS IT?

I need it back. I want to be a lawyer. I need to write the BEST essay ever and convince them, in two double-spaced pages, that if they look beyond the numbers, they will see a woman who wants it desperately. Who envisions herself as a lawyer, and who knows she will be a success.

But can I only handle one passion at a time? When I am trying to revitalize my passion for law, why do I find my love of nail polish faltering? Why am I no longer writing creatively? Why have I not done anything in Photoshop in MONTHS???

I still want to be passionate 😦 Help me find my passions. I can’t pick just one.

After I typed up this post, I did actually go down to get my polish remover and open up Youtube to catch up on my subscribed channels. iisuperwomanii posted a new video, and it furthered my melancholy mood 😦 RIP to her grandfather, please watch this extremely moving and emotional and uplifting video though…it has an important message. It felt like she was speaking right to me. Right to my fears and emotions.

I know I am ending this on a serious note, and my heart is just breaking for what she is going through, but I think it’s an important message that I really needed to hear.

What I want to say to you is that in 2013, you will fall. You will get upset, you will get heartbroken, things will go wrong. And what I want to tell you is that you don’t need to wait until the end of the year to decide it’s a new beginning. Every single day, any day you choose can be a new beginning. So in 2013, if something doesn’t go your way, don’t think “Oh, that’s it, the year is done, I can’t do anything.” No! Wake up the next morning, and make it happen. 2013 is your year, I believe in you, follow your dreams. And when I say follow your dreams, that doesn’t mean dream about them. That means wake up and make it happen. Stop wishing, start doing. I believe in you.

Without Fear, Favor, or Sympathy

Today was my last day of Jury Duty! Unfortunately for me, because I was an alternate juror, I was not a part of the final jury that is deliberating today and tomorrow (and however long it takes thereafter to reach a unanimous decision). The other alternates and I were dismissed today and thanked by both attorneys.

The Honorable Judge even remembered where I study! Before I left his court for the last time, he calls out “Oh and Alternate 3, good luck at NYU”

I blushed. So awesome that he remembered!

After that we got to briefly meet both the defense and prosecution attorneys, and that was really amazing. What I found disconcerting (but cool) was the rapport they had with one another out of the courtroom. Not only cordial, they were swapping stories, laughing, and at ease with one another. I don’t know if the reason is that she has defended many people against the ADA who was prosecuting the case or what, but you would have thought them a pair of friends if you saw them outside of the courtroom.

To me, that’s crazy. All personal emotions and relationships need to be left outside of the courtroom, but no matter how competitive the case gets, they are able to look one another in the eye with no hatred afterwards. No resentment.

I wonder if someday in the future, I’ll discover the secret of how I can do that.

I totally wrote this post up on June 27, but never got around to posting it. Better late than never!

I do not know if and when the frequency of blog posts on my blog will become faster. I’m in a real writing rut right now, and haven’t been doing much graphic design either.

I expect no fear, favor, or sympathy from my readers either. I’m still around though, so don’t give up on me just yet!

Pressure

I’m trying to visit law schools this summer, because I know that realistically speaking, it is highly unlikely that I get into a good law school in New York State. Mainly because NYS only has 3 really good law schools – Columbia, NYU, and Cornell – and they rank #3, 6, and 14 respectively. So I don’t think it’s wrong to consider my other options, spend time with friends, and also explore other colleges.

It’s just very frustrating that every time I bring up the subject of….my plans after graduation, my parent’s just take it for granted that I’m going to get into and attend NYU Law School. My dad tells me “Oh you told us that NYU had a 6 year program, that’s why we let you go” and time after time, I remind him that I said absolutely NO such thing. And he’s just rubbing it against me every time and he’s like, “Oh you’re so unreliable”

My mom’s concerns are pretty standard – she doesn’t want me to leave New York because she doesn’t think I’ll be able to survive out there in the big, bad, world. I mean one of her arguments is actually, “How are we supposed to move you in?”

PEOPLE ATTEND COLLEGE FROM OTHER STATES. WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF ARGUMENT IS THAT? A WEAK AND FLAWED ONE. I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF, PACK A SUITCASE, AND GO TO SCHOOL. Other people do it. I’m a big girl.

She doesn’t get that.

As long as I stay within New York, she’s content feeding me bullshit about trust and freedom, but I don’t really have any freedom at all. The second I mention going somewhere else, she just shuts me off completely and feeds me one bullshit excuse after the next on why it’s an impossible idea. Not a bad one, but an impossible one. Completely dismisses me and just flat out says “NO” and stops listening. How am I supposed to reason with that?

I want to visit law schools this summer. I want to get out of New York for law school, and I want to travel regardless of where I end up going for law school. I want to spend this summer as far away from “home” as possible because I hate living at home for extended periods of time. I’ve hated it since about 10th grade. I’m sure I hurt their feelings when I so vehemently told them that I couldn’t wait to go to college, but the oppressive atmosphere at home is just really too much. I have to abide by their rules, and their rules are so old-fashioned and, as I said, oppressive..

It just makes me want to cry when they listen to me so dismissively. They refuse to acknowledge any alternate possibilities and I know that their dream reality is…probably never going to come true. So how am I going to live at home through the disappointment and pity  and anger on their faces when I don’t get in?

She actually had the nerve to throw Hofstra law at my face. Yeah well I’m not doing it. If that’s where I end up, I might as well abandon my plan of becoming a lawyer right now. I can’t end up there, I have to do well on the LSAT and escape. I just have to.

Pressure – Written in anger, unedited, probably complete crap but…words I had to get out of my chest.

There’s so much pressure
Pressure from my home, my family,
Their expectations are a crushing weight and
I’m just struggling to stay afloat.
They know I can do it,
BUT WHAT IF I CAN’T?

I’m smart, I just have to study hard.
Well fine, but it isn’t THEM that’s putting in the hours.
It’s me, AND WHAT IF IT ISN’T ENOUGH?

Where’s your optimism?
Have a little faith in yourself.
They say.

And my family’s expectations,
those heavy, heavy expectations,
loom above me like a challenge and
I’m foolishly standing under their shaky chandelier.

As if I don’t know that I need to study.
I do. I KNOW.
But they aren’t the ones studying,
They don’t know how hard it is, and most of all,
They aren’t the ones with all those expectations of success.

Motivation, stamina, perseverence, endurance.
Just suck it up and study,
They say.

Well that’s fine, but what if studying isn’t all I need?
I need recommendations and I need a good GPA
And guess what, I’m not as smart as they think I am,
Because I don’t even have a good GPA.

It’s just difficult, every time I speak to my mother and
Hear her talk about attending NYU Law. In her perfect
little dream world with all the stupid statistics
That don’t mean a THING. But no, in her world, they mean
That I’m going to NYU Law.

That’s ranked #5 in the nation. Maybe 6.
Either way, that’s a hell of a small number,
When I consider how many law schools there are in this nation.
How am I supposed to get into #5?

What am I, really?
I enjoy graphic design.
I write.
I read. A lot.
I express myself in poetry and
Sometimes in prose.
I have brown eyes.

I am short, not thin,
I’m not always funny, I’m sort of awkward.
Bossy.

Not girlfriend material,
I’ve been told time and time again.

I’m just upset and sad and
Under a lot of that pressure to
Do better than I think I can and
Try not to fail everybody in my family.

They just think we’re naturally good at it,
But I know I’ve slacked. I could have done better,
But let’s face it. I came to college and for the first time,
I wasn’t on par with everybody else.
PEOPLE WERE JUST BETTER THAN ME even when they weren’t trying.

How am I supposed to beat them and get their spot
In NYU Law, when they have gotten better grades than I
Every single step of the way.

This is stupid,
Who do I really think I am?
How am I supposed to achieve my goals
When my family is setting them for me,
Much higher than they should be
And I’m floundering and they don’t understand
And I can’t speak to them about it because
They just don’t understand and…

And they think that I’m throwing it all away.
If I just studied a little harder, spent a little less time with friends.

And that’s fine, I could have done that. It wouldn’t have changed my grades,
My papers would still be the same.
But I’m still just a B+ student
And a B+ doesn’t get you into NYU Law.

I just wish my parents could see.

Back to the LSAT!

The NYU Pre-Professional Advising Office just sent out a batch of e-mails this week, and one of them forwarded a schedule of Kaplan LSAT classes from now till the June LSAT (And for some reason, a little bit after). I’m not taking the LSAT in June but it is good practice regardless, and a reason to wake up and study and get myself into a routine.

Plus, the word “free” in the e-mail title helped.

So here they are, a list of dates that Kaplan will be offering 2 hour long free LSAT prep courses!

  • LSAT 10 Question Challenge, Wednesday, 5/30, 7-9pm, Kaplan Headquarters (395 Hudson Street, New York, NY)
  • Free LSAT Prep: Logical Reasoning with Jeff Boudreau, 6/5, 7-9pm, Kaplan Midtown Office (131 W, 56th St., New York, NY)
  • Free LSAT Prep: Logical Reasoning with Jeff Boudreau, 6/6, 7-9pm, Kaplan Headquarters (395 Hudson Street, New York, NY)
  • Free LSAT Prep: Logic Games with Jeff Boudreau, 6/12, 7-9pm, Kaplan Midtown Office (131 W, 56th St., New York, NY)
  • Free LSAT Prep: Logic Games with Jeff Boudreau, 6/13, 7-9pm, Kaplan Headquarters (395 Hudson Street, New York, NY)
  • Free LSAT Practice Test, 6/19, 6:30-10:30pm, Kaplan Village Office (16 Cooper Square, New York, NY)

YOU CAN SIGN UP FOR THE CLASSES BY CLICKING ME.

Be aware that you might need a University affiliation with either a CUNY (City Universities of New York) or another NYC based private college (NYU, Columbia, Fordham, Pace, etc)

Awesome. I’ll add these dates into my HTC’s calendar so I don’t forget 🙂

Off to do some household chores and kill time, bbl. With another post! Hopefully one that is more in the form of a standard blog entry.

 

xoxo
Pryanka